I thought about throwing the pics that I edited up here as a post and calling it a day, but I want to stay true to the commitment I made to writing. Everyone sees the pics on Facebook anyway and I've been hiding behind them for months - writing-wise.
I always find it the most difficult to focus and write the way I want, when multiple areas in my life become chaotic at once. I'm a mom - I can handle a few disasters at a time, so I mean, when BIG things are going on at once.
This was one of those weeks when just many things came at me at the same time and I kept trying to find the time and energy to focus on writing about any one of them, and I kept failing. By far, one of the the best things I do for myself is good goal-setting: goals with distinct timelines and attainable outcomes - I almost always feel obligated to complete those things. (And no - they are not *action plans*. I am not management. They are not action plans. They are good goals, with details.)
(Thank you, AA for that. Out of the many lessons I learned, accountability was a HUGE one. I will always be grateful. I even feel like I've reached a point where I know how to make goals that I can accomplish with self-guided accountability. It's actually enough for me to say "one hour when the kids aren't home, period." That is a one post, minimum, per week; 2 on non-kid weekends writing schedule.)
Additionally, I inadvertently made my life even BETTER when I started THIS blog because some of the things I want to write about are personal, and not crap I want to share with the world. I just want to write about for myself and maybe the few other writer people that have always read my blogs and I I mean ALWAYS. But through the years, I definitely had to live through enough real life repercussions from my public writing that I have learned when not to hit the button: PUBLISH.
Now I can again - because I can say anything on the private one - and I will keep my thoughts somewhat edited for public consumption on this one.
Some highlights [as in, some light banter that can't get me in trouble or cause any such repercussions, lol] of the past week have been:
- Nate and I are talking - and yes, I mean, talking with some semi-winks. I don't know.
- I had written a bunch more, than deleted it - smh - who really cares about the in-between days? Right? Do I, even? No, not really, it's not really the kind of journey that one wants to over-think, thus write about anyway...so a measly tbd here.
- I gave Bear her first hair cut. I love that little girl. The fact that she runs into my arms and rests her head on my shoulder and doesn't leave my side makes it VERY damn easy to like that kid. The baby? ...I mean, she's adorable and all, but I know when she hits that 6 months mark, I am gonna be all like "OMG, Melody is so much fun to make giggle!"
- Ummm...I'm sure there's more. Hang on.
- I paid off some bills?
Alright, not anything I feel the need to post and advertise, but an hour nonetheless.
*sigh* *deep breath* *draw strength* *early bedtime* *tomorrow is near*
:)
Just sayin'
